♥ Cil's World

♥Monday, April 21, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

I dont' know how to say ....

Already a lot of times always grumbling..

miss home..

wanna go home...

but till now.. never make it ...

i never thought that will be so hurt to stay alone..

I feel so lonely ..

still cannot fill my emptiness of my heart ..

a litre of tears fell from my eyes..

till dunno wat to do

can anyone lend me a wing so i can fly

so desperate.. hope tommorow will be better..

no mood to eat .. no mood to work.. no mood to talk .. no mood to do anything ...

heart pain ... headache.. coughing ..

wtf.. i hate this feeling ..

damn so hurt ....

yeah the feeling better already .. anyway .. I went to Newton with some frens yestreday and they really cheer me up .. hahaha ..

got a lot of stupid conversation and missundersatnding since i still improving my English ..

haha.. alot of times we didn't click each other....

but feel much better today =)

and the first reason i have to be better is..

who will take care of me if I can't take care myself.. correct ?? paiseh if thinkin other people will come to help u lah .. i don't want to expect anyone.. no more meh ..=.='

anyway .. they ask me am I prefer have BF Singaporean or Indonesian
haha .. and I still answer Indonesian .. waw.. Indonesia should be proud with me is it ?
I really love my country till don't want to have bf from Singapore lol...
hm.. still too early too work .. so sleepy ..

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♥Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!! YAHOO SUCKS!!!

sOMEONE CHANGED MY PASSWORD AND I CAN'T LOGIN ...

MY CO-WORKERS SAID I GOT SPAM...DAMN!!!!

not in a good mood today ...

Tuhan yang baik...

kasih sabar yg banyak hari ini...

capeeeeeeeeeee bgd...

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Went to Gleneagles to company Ling at hospital ..

Very happy to talk & meet with with her..

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♥Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

Location : Old Supreme Court

Time : 13 April 2008

Make Up : Body Shop

Photographer : Ponco

Choreograher : Asa

Reflector : Adi

I desperately.. wanna have photoshoot...

miss the old times.. when i still slim hahaha ...

now already getting bigger n fatter..

but still can consider lah hauhauahuahuah

Is it still acceptable?? ^^

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♥Monday, April 14, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

huh.. so many story .. to blog.. but i wanna blog bout my feeling today ...

hm.. feel so tiring n boring.. i need to clean my house.. my laundry .. dining room .. my bedroom...

and so stuck in the office...

btw.. have a chit chat with some friends today ..

kind of tiring if you expect somthing from your bf/ gf.. if you put too much hope on that person .. somehow.. will end up in a lot of dissapointed..

I realize this kind of thing very true.. probably .. I tried not to put too much hope in the other person .. so i won't get dissapointed..

but only wondering.. how is it supposed to be? is it true?

if you expect a lot.. the risk you will get dissapointed will be a lot as well...

so i decided not to put my xpectation for other people..

I realise when i never expect I won't get dissapointed as well..

true true? ^0^ ...

haits.................. monday ah ...

start to coughing as well.. I hope tommorow.. I will getting well..if no will be very irritating..=.=''
so sad ah ..

Imiss my home cooking so bad.. yesterday tried to cook something but failed.. so sad..

I wish my Mom was here to teach me how to do it..

aih ... miss home so bad..>.<''

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♥Friday, April 11, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

wew.. 4.17 am in the morning.. I sleep and dunno why woke up ( kebangun ) at this time..

thinkin a bit

And i can see that

in every part on my life..

I found Grace.. favour and His love...

So in love ^^

Nite everyone =) enjoy your weekend =)

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♥Wednesday, April 9, 2008

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Weirdo Indonesian..~.*

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11:23 PM

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I can't sleep well since this Sunday ..
so irritating..

become very sleepy n not productive ( kaya biasana iya aja)

hm hm... blog bahasa indo ahh
25 November 2007 :
Oya, : cecilllll.. happy birthday yaaa.. mau kado apaaaa
Cil : hm.. terserah oy.. tapi catokan juga bole ^^ V
Oya .. ya udah deh tar kita cariin...
Keesokan harinya
Eddra: cilllllllll lagi perlu apaaa???
cil : catokan dra ^^V
Eddra : ga ada yg laen ?
cil : kagak
dalam seminggu g menunggu catokan g .. dan ga dapet...
disimpulkan anak2 clementi udah lupa ama catokan si cecil

bulan demi bulan berlalu ....
suatu hari di bulan januari ( watson lagi sale di xpo )
oya: cil mo ke watson :??
cil : iya.. mo titip apa?
oya: sikat gigi bole deh ...eh cilll
cil : iya oy ?
oya: jangan beli catokan dulu yah
cil: ......... FAINT ... haha .. g pikir udah pada lupa..oke deh
oya : ga lupa kok

hari demi hari berlalu ...
oya udah bday
vena juga
eddra baru liwat

TGL 7 APRIL 2008 .....
Cecil dapet catokan loh
hiks terharu..
baru mo potong rrambut ga jadi deh...
kan harus pake catokan ^^V

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♥Saturday, April 5, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

Hi guys... been not in the mood for blog this week hehe.. pardon my laziness...
I believe this comin week i will be more active...
I actully insist DONT WANT TO OPEN A NEW ACCOUNT @ MULTIPLY , FACEBOOK , BLABLABLA... butttt.... since all of my friends .. blame me.. that i only want to use my blog..=.='' I start to consider open a new account @ facebook .. or multiply
.. hhhh... so all of you .. can be more happy and can take the picture from face book

cape deeee....

Today I woke up at 12.00 o clock .. tats consider reasonable cos yesterday I slept at 4.00 am .. hehe

Just went out to SAKURA with cg.. celebrate 4 person's birthday in APRIL .. waa.. so many .. WE ATE A LOT... till very2 full... so satisfy .. ^^

and meet Ann .. so happy =)

mmm.... considering to become air stewardess ?? still consider... She told me that later if you already get used to it.. will be very boring as well.. euh ..

CG MEMBER ^^

So cute this guy.. really serious when make a wish ...

Anyway ... wat is the best for me?? Lets my Daddy think for me .. hehe ..^0^ A lot of things in my mind in these few days....

From the very small thing till the big2 things .. haaaaaaaaaa................................. btw.. do i too expresif?? i consider to become more quiet..:o .. a lot of people said that I too noisy.. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!is it??

=.='' I will update raw picture soon .. soon soon ..;p

btw why all of you never meake blog ah .. so fun u know..=.=''

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For life only once.. just cherish everything and enjoy your life..

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11:47 AM

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Free drink.. free flow.. n takin a lot of picture.. wat a life =)

Yay.. Greddy Martin

Indonesian n Columbian

so narcist ??

CUTE PAULINE =)

Enjoying my self @ Thumper =)

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