♥ Cil's World

♥Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

yesterday i been so pissed of..

then other thing is only left 2 bucks in my wallet

4 bucks in my savings..

and i been so tired

i think i just understand why everyone want to retire as soon as they can
huhuh

never been working as hard as this time..0.0

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♥Monday, July 28, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

I can't sleep yesterday .. really can't sleep

too hungry?? too many thoughts? ??

I need some refreshment.. something really fun.. something can make me feel comfortable..

hm.. but dunno wat ..o.0..

semangat!!

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♥Sunday, July 27, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

Yesterday I feel again on Vivo .. wah .. I fell so many times this month ..
Yesterday when I was fell , Martin and sandy were beside me.. and they look so worried a bout me.. so nice ^^ hehe pardon me..=p

Anyway ... I love the pink shirt I bought from Hongkong .. so cute!!!! love it a lot ^^
I went to chc yesterday.. simply follow my feeling that want to go to church even that is saturday

Today went to church again .. i just simply love mu church .. day by day .. make me fall in love more and more.. do you know when you were at home you will feel that you are in the right place? thats wat i felt...

today my pastor talked a bit about rich people and plenty of money .. haha i guess everyone also know the different rite?
I been feel quite tired.. my stomach also dunno wats wrong.. but really irritating..=( .. I will get well soon !! ^^

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7:45 AM

♥Friday, July 25, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

My God just simply awesome...

Today I got my first deal ^^ which is quite amazing.. Why ??

Because this deal actually I never expect one.. I only show the tenants once.. and after that negotiated through sms and phone call.. tats all..

Actually I been very pissed off with the tenant last time.. since she always called me 'mba'
I thought.. this person really irritating.. why cant call me cie or better to call me my name ..
I already expect the other deal from the other tenants as well..
On Monday nite this week I even waited untill 12 o clock with other agent.. to close the deal with rese vietnamese girl ( We already show her all the unit we have in Springdalefor 3 days??????)
almost close but never close.. and in the end no deal at all...

but yesterday I was thinking.. wah probably this will become my first deal..since Dad wanna prove to me.. He can use even the person I don't like to glorify Him.. isn't it
haha .. And today it just happened.. and one other thing that the tenant is from Makasr.. so She didn't mean to call me as mba.. hahah ... and actually she is quite nice as well ..=)

My God just simply amazing..

^^

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9:52 AM

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Dear Diary ♥

my body feel not well.. rmm.. my stomache still there since a few days a go.. I tried to ignore it.. but always come again .. I think I been to pushy to myself this month ..
Probably need some rest.... need some sports as well.. already almost 1 month never do sports at all... mm mm .. thinking to go cycling next week if possible.. will be so happy .. playing with sand and sun ..
I miss Kudeta as well.. 0.0 wanna go there again ..
sunset...sand.. Bali..wat a life.. ^^ and will be perfect if my lovely one also there ^0^
LOL

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2:22 AM

♥Thursday, July 24, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

I really believe if you already using your logic too much you better don't continue your relationship ..
But when logic lost control at all.. and you were using your feeling ..
it can be so nice feeling and it also can be so damn hurt..
I almost forget how much love can hurt you ..

I hate it a lot..
I hate when man start using all of his logic and talk a lot of things which is I really don't want to hear..
I hate when he things he can buy everything with money include my happiness
I hate it a lot ....

Sometimes you will lose all your logic..
When in your eyes you only want to catch him ..
only think about him .. and willing to do anything
damn so hurt when you really into someone..
and he hurt you so bad..

I almost forget that I had been crying non stop for 2 weeks even a whole month only for love

Lost my appetite at all .. no mood to do anything..

Yesterday something happened and remind me all the things..
And if.. love can make us more mature.. let it be..
but I can't afford to risk all the pain ..

I thought I can.. but no..no for now..
( I mean now is when I am writing my blog)
haha dunno if 2 hours later
I change my mind..

Only one little girl who want to always stay become a girl
Because to become mature.. need a lot of pain and effort
want to fly away .. some day ..
^^

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6:49 PM

♥Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

I am in a good mood..=)

feel so happy n content ..
yesterday ..when i was reading a newspaper.. looking adv. 1 by 1 ..

one uncle come and ask.. you want to buy a house??

i said no... im an agent..

thenn

he keep talking almost 30 minutes..

said i must to do this do that.. and somehow makes me pissed off..

already thinking.. wat the hell this person ..

he even said im so slow.. how come i can work in the public place..
( off coz i can if i didnt disturb by kepo person like you )

I already almost think to say something not nice..

but i think he already too old.. probably dont have anyone to stay and listen to him..

walaww.. irritating ah this kind of eprson

always thinkthey are the best or wat ??

please laa...
lol

but I still on the good mood.. lol...

why ah .. I am feeling so content =)

walaw...
^^

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♥Sunday, July 20, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

been grumbling a lot since yesterday ....
my tears cannot tahan lah ..
really irritating..
a lot of thing iin my mind right now..

ok , my owner just told me that she want to use the room , so I need to move out on September.. I shocked! so shock till I cried.. paiseh lah
but I think every thing will be good at the end isn't it?
So now I am considering to rent a whole flat or only a room , since I think I have a bit trouble if I staying with landlord.. I think better not to stay with the owner..
later do this do that also wrong lah ....

I really believe that everything will turn to be good in the end

for my God will never leave me or forsake me..

but I really need to be feel secure now.. feel so unsecure..

I am quite stressed.. hope it will be ok soon

I just realize probably i loss my weight quite a lot ... I am using my jeans today and found that my jeans become very loss..

haha .. at least this one consider good? lol.. but i got headache ..0.0 really irritating ..

AYO CIL SEMANGAT!!!!!!!!!!!

semangat ! semangat !!

hm.. lagi sebel nie.. kenapa g grumbling melulu ya ..

sedihnya.. hayo donk cil semangat .. mana sie semangatnya ..0.0

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♥Thursday, July 17, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

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♥Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

I slept only for 4 hours yesterday .. been so tired and everything feel unsecure..

but my power only come from Him .. which already paid all for me..

too in love with my God.. even sometimes I felt that I really can't stad in .. just simply believe Him .. I feel like i got my strength.. amazing God..

probably I only have a little faith .. a very little faith .. but I believe He still take it as a granted =)

even sometimes I was afraid.. feel unsecure.. have no confident with my self..

I believe He is too in love with me too leave me alone =)

just now brwsing some picture from friendster.. and saw a cute picture for prewedding..

I simply love look at the guy whom kiss his gf at the shoulder.. haha .. I dunno why ..

look so adorable..=p

one by one my friends got their partner.. leave me alone.. haha

feel my confident drop ? lol ? probably sometimes..

but the best is yet to come isn't it Dad? ^^

even sometimes I argue with my self do I did a wrong thing? do I consider too demanding? do i..? do I ..........?? do I suppose to do this?? do i suppose to do thatt ??

but even the answer is Yes..

just simply believe my Dad will turn all the bad things become good things for me..

so adorable =)

for even in the worst part of my life.. I always find your Hand taking care of me =)

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1:40 AM

♥Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

The one thing Daily Devotional today very good..
I really blessed

Are you groping in the dark, not knowing what to do? He says, “I am the light of the world. (John 8:12) When you walk in Me, you will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

‘I Am Who I Am’

Exodus 3:1414And God said to Moses, “I am who I am.”…
Whatever your challenge is today, whether it is physical, emotional, financial or marital, the great I Am declares to you: “I am to you what you need Me to be.”
Do you need healing? He says, “I am the Lord who heals you. (Exodus 15:26) And as you believe Me, you will see your healing manifest thirty-fold, sixty-fold and a hundredfold.” Are you groping in the dark, not knowing what to do? He says, “I am the light of the world. (John 8:12) When you walk in Me, you will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
Are you looking for a way out of a bad situation? He says, “I am your deliverer. I will reach down from on high, take hold of you and draw you out of the deep waters.” (Psalm 18:2,16)
Are you wondering if there is more to life than merely existing from day to day? He says, “I am the resurrection and the life. (John 11:25) I came to give you life. And where there is life, there cannot be death. You will have life and life more abundantly.” (John 10:10)
Are you fearful of what is ahead of you? He says, “I am the good shepherd (John 10:11), who leads you to pastures of tender, green grass and waters of rest. You will not suffer lack.” (Psalm 23:1–3)
Are you confused by the opinions and reports of man? He says, “I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last. (Revelation 1:11) I have the final word in your life. The doctors do not have the final word. The experts do not have the final word. I have the first word and the last word in your situation.”
My friend, do not be fearful of the problems you face. The great I Am declares to you, “Fear not! For I am to you what you need Me to be!”

For in everything in my life.. I will never be good enough to do it by my self.. if not becoz His grace.. I cant imagine what kind of life I will have

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♥Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

I have a good nap today .. and very happy about that,
Since Monday work very hard, feel so lame ah .. when studying don't understand, in the class, can't catch wat the lecturer said.. so terrible.. like go mad..

Yesterday when I was told my story to my friend, suddenly I realized by my self that my job not supposed to make me stressfull.. I believe that God will always beside me no matter wat.. no need to work so hard.. no need to be so stressfulll and think think think

And make me realize other thing...
I have some friends in Indonesia..
I know some of them already years...
Wat is make a difference is .. Which way you chose to climb the mountain ?
Some of them chose to be focus in their career.. never hang out together... spent a little time with family and i can consider they didnt enjoying their life.. after they realized they already lost their youth already ..

The other groups always play .. never think about their future .. haha.. Can I consider this one the best ?? no lah 0.0

The last one.. They work hard but still enjoying their youth .. probably they will achieve their succes slower than the first group .. but at least ..they can enjoy their youth ..

For now ..I think I want to achieve my succes with enjoying my youth as well

even a lot of things need to be done in almost the same time..
My faith will never failed.. even that is failed.. I will find His hand hold me.. ^^
Never forget the reason I work to
glorify His name
for my parents as well ..

Only 2 cents of my words ^^

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7:03 PM

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Dear Diary ♥

Pengisian Buletin Board secara otak g berasa penuh

repost deh, biar smua org ngejawab nih pertanyaan^^ prove ur love!

for boyz!( g wakilkan para pria berdasarkan pertemanan g dengan kaum pria )

1.klo misnya dia berasal dari keluarga yg kurang kaya, apakah kamu masih mencintainya?

( ya.. kalau tampangnya cantik mah gapapalah g aja yg kerja)
2.klo misnya loe n temen loe suka ama ce yg sama gimana?

( haduh masa saingan sama temen sendiri , mau maju juga ga enak , tar dipikirnya gua ngeduluin dia ..ga usahlah.. tar gua cari yg laen aja ( temennya juga mikir yg sama, jadi aja cewenya kosong .. bodoh )

3.klo misnya ada yg ngejebak kamu dgn ngomongin fitnah didpn dia, gmn?

( bloddy hell ... ajak berantem )

4.bila suatu hari klo kamu selingkuh, trus ketauan mah dia, dan kamu ga bisa boonk lg, trus dia memandangmu... tersenyum, sambil meneteskan air mata berkata "meskipun hati ini sgt sakit, tp aku akan ttp setia mencintaimu", sambil berjalan pulang ditengah hujan deras, gimana?

( menyesal setengah mati sambil mikir berarti bisa selingkuh lagi donk)

5.klo dia selingkuh, trus ketahuan ama kmu, gimana?

( yah asal masih cantik mah gapapa lah )

6.kamu cinta ga ma dia? kamu cinta sampai mati atau stengah mati atau cuman pura2 mencintainya karena ada tujuan lain?

( ya dua duanya donk, cinta dan bertujuan laen, kalau bisa sekaligus dua kenapa harus satu )

7.klo misnya dia nangis ama kmu krn kalian dah mo pisah ke university yg jauh bgt, kmu gmn?

( sedih juga sie, tapi bagus bisa ngeceng2 lagi kaya waktu single)

8.klo misnya dia udah ga sesempurna dulu lg, i mean, fisiknya, apakah kamu ttp mencintainya??

( ya gapapalah , ada marie france, bisa disuru kesana)

9.kalo dia dikerjain ama org2 jaat, preman pas lg jalan brg kamu, gmn?

( g kerjain balik dong .. enak aja ngerjain cewe g .. mo ditaro dimana tampang g )

10.klo dia ngajak kmu s*x gimana? hayoo... jwb nih pertanyaan tersulit buwet cowo!

( diterimalah bodo amat sie )

buet galz! my answer
1.kalo misnya dia berasal dr kluarga yg kurang berharta, gmn?

when there is a will , there is a way ,

duid emang penting tapi tetep bukan segalanya

2.klo misnya dia bukan tipe cowo idaman loe, tp dia sayang bgt mah loe, gmn?

sesyang apa eh ? situ yakin sayang ama sini lol
3.klo misnya, kmu ngeliat dia bekerja habis2an keringat jagung buat kmu, perasaanmu gmn?

duh kamu kok menanggung semuanya sendiri sie?? bareng atuh sayy kamu ga anggep aku disini yaa... berat sama dipikul ringan sama dijinjing

4.pilih yg mana org kaya, tampan, baik, cool, punya jaguar selusin, punya rumah mewah di stiap negara atau dia yg sangat sayang pd kamu?

sayang banged! percuma duid kaya beras kalau hatinya palsu

5.kamu cinta ga ma dia? kamu cinta sampai mati atau stengah mati atau cuman pura2 mencintainya karena ada tujuan lain?

tujuan apa dudul .. ada juga dia ada tujun apa??

6.bila suatu hari klo kamu selingkuh, trus ketauan mah dia, dan kamu ga nisa boonk lg, trus dia memandangmu... tersenyum, sambil meneteskan air mata berkata "meskipun hati ini sgt sakit, tp aku akan ttp setia mencintaimu", sambil berjalan pulang ditengah hujan deras, gimana?

...... lagi bikin film korea ya mas?

7.klo misnya yah, kamu ngerjain dia dgn cara pura2 ngajak dia s*x, trus dia nolak loe mentah2 dan mukanya merah padam bagai tomat baru matang, gimana?

berarti lucu kan mukanya merah2 gituh =p .. berarti anak baek2 ituh ahhaha ( apa merah nahan napsu bingung juga lol )

8.klo hari ini hari trakhir dia disini, coz dia dah mau pindah jauh skali, gmn?

haduh .. jgn lama2 plis..
9.klo misnya dia dijebak org lain, trus loe ga pcy mah dia n ga mau dgr penjelasannya, bahkan menamparnya, tp suatu hari, loe tau yg sesungguhnya, dan ternyata dia masih syg ma loe, saat itu loe bkl gimana ya?

ya minta maap donk salah paham ..

10.klo dia ngantiin loe nanggung malu, sakit dan akibat dari smua perbuatan loe yg bodoh, mnurut loe dia gimana?

wah situ yakin mao ?? itu mah kudu everyday atuh ahahah banyak bgt perbuatan bodoh gua piye..=p

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♥Monday, July 7, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

today I fell gaian.. !@#!@#!@#!@3 last week I also fell down in PlaSing ..

kepeleset dari tangga atas ke bawah bus.. cape deee biru2 ..0.0 untung ga keseleo.. tapi sakittttt iksss kenapa ya belakangan ini sering jatoh ?? .. huuuuuuuuuu biru benerannn sial!! sakit lagi lebam

rm rm .. feel so sleepy as well.. I need more time time time time ... 0.0 feel like no time to do everything.. hahah i think this one can consider becos of my laziness .. 0.0

tired eh ! ayo semangat!!!!!

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♥Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Dear Diary ♥

I feel so tired..
I just finished my second day real estate course but feel like.. omg..

My class for July is every Monday , Wednesday and Fiday from 7-10 pm , and every Saturday from 10-1 pm...

So after I finish my work I will need to sit again for 3 hours..to listen to the lecturer and my english still not good enough ..
And I still need to learn by myself in home.. to read again the modul and to understand bymyself..
so if i finished my module at 10 .. i will reach home around 11... When can I cook ??? 0.0

Actually I thought I can do this by myself.. but now
Obviously I can't pass all this thing by myself.. if my Daddy leave me alone.. I will died ..

Really ah .. I never think I'm good enough for everything in my life..

I really wish my day become 36 hours so i can follow up my shop ( www.kawaii-shop.ecrater.com) I can finish my real estate course and I can work my full time...
I know I need to focus..obviously I know!! I don't need every of you to say .. I am crazy .. I want a lot of things together... even you never said I already feel myself crazy ..

but I believe I will never be alone to pass all this things

I really clueless about it .. I only want do depend on Daddy.. I really cannot stand it if only by myself..

so My time for hang out is only Tuesday , Thursday , Friday nite, Saturday nite.. minus the time for learn .. so how eh ?? I need to talk also lah .. will become crazy if I didnt meet friends and talk talk talk hahaha ...

hu.. I just wondering how will I pass this month ....

Just came from holiday already wanna other holiday ..

How Bout go to Bali on November?? ^^ wah .. so excited to think about Bali .
I miss my Dreamland.. my Kuta.. and the food as well ..

Alot of people said that they prefer to stay oversea than Indonesia..
but for me.. Indonesia still the best place to live...
Bandung obviously the best ...
of course because my hometown , my parent and my friends are there..
I have a sense of belonging in my city ...
even last time I feel so excited when i see Pasteur road .. haha ..kind of crazy..
hm..

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