holaaaaaaaa...............
gong xi fat chai anyone....
so long time never blog.. I will update as much as I can.. =D
anyway ... ate steamboat almost 3x in these 4 days .. waw... and my owner's mom is around so she always cook for me as well.. aha.. so nice =D
so todae.. I met my fren .. she just broke up with her bf 2 weeks a go.. and she went back to Indonesia.. a lot of her fren told her that she wasted her time because she already know its almost impossible to work on it ..
anyway .. I told her that isn't wasted.. thats a proccess of life..
even in the end you will not married with him.. you got something to learn in your relationship.. you grow.. you become more mature and you feel the essence of life.. even now you are older .. you getting more mature as well...
I don't think any reason that you said that is wasted..
if you don't like the person and you only play with his heart that I called wasted.. otherwise.. it's ok .. cos you will neer know if you never try ( I need to tell myself also .. sigh...!! )
so I just cheer her a bit.. at least make her a bit happier..
anyway .. I just wondering what I am suposed to be in my future..
a marketing? a manager? a branding manager? a house wife? an architect ? an interior designer? a self employ? an agent? selling clothes?
I really don't have any clues right now.. but from wat I believe is.. I will have a good future.. good life.. good job .. and everything in my hand will be fruitfull .. I believe that my life can become a testimony.. because people can see that I can't do it if only with my self.. people must see God in my life ..
I think so many times these days.. I still can't get the answer.. even people asked me .. wat do you like??? I also don't know the answer..
Shopping? Taking pictures??
He said.. so become a model lah .. huh.. with my weight like this .. how can I become a model.. and I don't think i talented and pretty enough to become a real model.. if only for fun.. still ok lah .. but for the real one.. am I good enough ??
I think almost all the girl in the world had dream to become a real model before.. but in the reality .. do I really want to be a model??
a lot of people think that model is a pretty girl without brain
I don't know why all the people got their stupid narrow minded.. but anyhow..I want to be smarter girl.. I want to stand up with my own strength .. I want to chase all my dream.. I want to travel around the world.. and the most one is I want my parents to be happy =D
Just believe and all the things will follow you! amennn...
anyway .. tat will be great if I have a motivator who always can give me a support .. haha.. means bf?
just such a liar if i said that i don't want any .. but .. until now.. I haven't found " him " whom I loved and he loves me too ..
my cuz always told me.. just stop being a picky .. chose someone and take his as a bf even you don't like that much .. otherwise people will see you as an unwanted girl...
Im considering tha idea for sometime..but praise God.. I didnt go for it..
that will be hurt somemore if I only play with a guy heart and make it for my own benefit ...
if you lower down your standart .. you will always get the common one..
am I have the high standart ? yes I have.. because if I only have a common standart everyone also can become my bf.. ( haha my girl told me about this and this encourage me a lot
(I thought........... I found someone that " I thought I like " a years a go but to be honest it didn't work out.. just happen that he never really like me and he make me confused all the time with his behaviour.. makes me feel like... am I not good enough ? am I not pretty enough? am I not deserve for you ? and you never know thats the worse man .. if you feel that you are not good enough to be loved.. omg! )
and the conclusion that He is not into me.. because if he really into me I believe he will make a lot of things to make me feel I'm good enough ..
and hey !! I deserve all the things I deserve to feel comfortable.. I deserve to be loved.. i deserve someone who really who looked after me..
just a good felling to know that I deserved it =D )
so just move on from all the things.. and facing all the new things in my life right now.. cos this year would be great .. all the good things will be happen in my life..
There is so exciting when you know you are not walking alone.. cos God is standing beside you , watching over you and help you to do everything you want everything you desire
